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A Walk to Remember…

A walk to remember,

A long journey to my destiny

A feeling of no despair

Desirous to reach, to achieve

I will never stop facing

All the difficulties in my life.

A walk to remember,

Actuation plus supports built

Against the wall that never crumble

Fight with determination

Surrender and rue I will not

A path to my aim, my dream.

A walk to remember,

A track where I find myself

A self of me beneath the mask

A self of braveness and maturity

A fool or an intellectual

It all depends on me, myself.

A walk to remember,

A battle between hatred and love

Spirit to be rouse to fight for myself

Where proponents left me alone

Obstacles are all around me

Challenging me, I’ll never lose.

A walk to remember,

Where nightmare struck and maze formed

List of memories are to be kept

Remembrance of your image

Will never ever fade

Even when I’m led away,

Adios I would say…

i’m gona die soon..wel,went 2 sunway medical centre 4 my gastric thingy ler n went 4 a slight shop wit mum n big bro..bought shirts oni..hmm…b4 tat v went 2 haf our meal..n back home kinda late..study 4 exams while on9-ing n chatting wit 1 of my close fwen (stricly no name mentioned) n my "sis"…kinda nice n felt a bit relaxed chatting wit them s i burst almost everything 2 them..hmm…den sleep…….til i woke up at 5 (late) 2 study..plan 2 wake up at 4 but fail 2 do so..bath n everything n "my close fwen" mis call 2 let me noe tat it’s already 6 o clock so tat i’ll take my medicine…aiyo…!! so scared ler…haven memorize d x-periment oso la..hmm…dun care ler..went 2 skool…plan 2 study but end up chatting n gossiping wit frens…haha…n den………..bla bla bla…..back home n rest 4 a while…woke up from nap watch tv n tok 2 small bro…(scolding la actually..) =] hmm…shower n get everything done..heading 2 sg chua 4 wesak thingy..saw lotzz of ppl….hmm…keep looking 4 <MR.M> n saw him afta the parade finish…leg got hurt n now walking like "orang cacat"….hmm…tats all ler i ges…back home n chat wit mom…v’r toking like s if v’r best frens…hmm….gotta blog soon ler…very tired now…gtg n sleep ady…mizz ya all but not s much s missing <him>….hehe…k la..-chiaoz-

aiks..tot of bloggin y’day but too tired so sleep d..hmm…tok abt y’day 1st..05/05/05..triple 5IVE day..i’ve been waiting 4 tiz day 2 come coz triple 5IVE mer..hehe..wake up early in the morning..kinda happie coz the only day tat i din vomit 4 tiz whole week..but then wen i was brushing my teeth n i duno y i swallowed ‘colgate’..i try 2 cough n spilt it out n at last i vomit..*sob*sob*n den i go skool like usual..quite happie 2day coz wil b eating lunch wit my both "sis"..hehe..so walk 2 mcD afta skool..wen crossing road tat time almost got ‘bang’ by car..scare me..!! den reach mcD..eat wit "sis" 1/2 way,she found out her burger got a long,curly n black hair..n den they complain n thingy like tat ler…so kesian la…aiyo..!! but nvm..v stil tink of our 20K..haha..(u all won noe wats tat) den v went n visit 1 of my fren’s mum in town(n borrowed her toilet) hehe..hmm…den both of them force me 2 follow them 2 church n haf dinner in their hse..but then i refuse coz kinda shy 2 see sum1 in their hse..hmm…aggie driving coz she wana go 2 convent 2 train the comp squad..half way jalan oni,car mati engine..so bad luck..!! me n aggie hafta push the car while angie inside the car controlling…*sighz* saw mel in town pulak..aiyoyo..!! so many things happen…v tot the mcD fella curse us 4 complaining "the hair stuff"..hmm…n den nutink lor…cum back 2 own hse..bad luck stil here..wanan drink water n wen i hold,the bottle slipped from my hand n books "GONE"..all wet…!! so bad luck..i tink tats all 4 thrus..not feeling well n all la…maybe sum side effect from the new medicine..but 1 thing makes me feel happie bit bit ler…he called me n v chat 4 almost an hour.. =] okie…continue wat happen 2day…i woke up late n i missed the skool bus…so bad luck..coz phone kinda "sot sot" ady..alarm not working at all…so dad fetching 2 skool…reach skool like usual..put bag in d class n den go down 4 assembly..study n everything..recess time so bad luck…one group of boi-z playiong football n the stew-pitt ball hit me…my fren can escape but the ball jz cum 2 me duno y..shud b my fren hu got hit but it turns out me…aiks..!! so painful..n den wen i go into my class..(almost) so funnie n malu n all la..!! hmm…..duno la…n den cum back n everything n i’m bloggin now afta chatting wit my fren on the phone..anyway,hope my bad luck wil go away from me asap…so unlucky nowadays…!! hmm…i ges til here ler..got otha paper work 2 do..k la..!! take care ya hommies…!! <muax>

aihzz..its 1st of may 2day..n i’m sitting down alone recalling all the memories a had wit him..shud i jz delete it or keep it..? i reali nid 2 noe..y me..? hmm..this wuz the day i met him last year..the day romance started..the day he came into my life n brighten it..it all started wen i broke up wit my 1st bf..my world totally went out of color n then he came..he’s totally a perfect guy 4 me..i stil remember the "black singlet" he gave me 2 wipe away my tears wen i was crying..soon,v started our relationship..he treated me very very good n i’m s if his princess..v’r so happy being 2gtr..phone connects us both..n lollipop s promises..M & M our tag..being reli happy 2gtr..reli reli happy..n i stil remember 29th of May 2004,its the 1st time v hold our hands in his skool’s bbq nite..i am thinking tat he’s the Mr.Right i’m looking 4 all this while..i reli wana b wit him 4eva..i cried wen he went 2 camp..i mizz him sooo much til i cant control my tears from rolling down my cheek..he’s everything 2 me..reali everything..v r jz a simple couple actually..having lunch 2gtr n toking 2 each other..v like 2 do things tat r nonsense 2 otha ppl but fun 2 us..v played under the rain..chasing each other,jacking each other…haha…tat were those days huh..?? i remember wen v both sit at the balcony eating M & M while chatting..i wuden have my M&M til he helped choose wich color 2 eat 1st..n the "pop" sound he made from the M&M bottle jz 2 make me luff..hmm..til my bday whr he cooked 4 me..i remember i was coming back from tuition n he actually ignored me..i feel so pissed instead of feeling happy..he didn’t tok 2 me at all..i feel like giving him a punch on his face..i was 2 tired so i slept..i remember i was sick at that time..n i dreamt of him accompanying me by my side covering me wit blanket..once i woke up,i straight away tel him wat i dreamt..n he said its not a dream but its true..i feel so touched n happy..i was so cold shivering n sneezing..he wear 4 me a sweater of his n hug me..tat time was raining i guess..n the scary lightning strucking..i felt so scared but now wit him by my side,i feel so protected in his arms..n den he start cooking dinner 4 me..n i keep disturbing him..its so funny n memorable til i can remember every seconds on tat day…he told me he purposely ignored me so tat i’ll tink he 4got my bday..but actually he’s not..i feel so blessed wit him by my side..everytime wen i reli nid sum1 2 tok 2,he’ll jz b thr 4 me..w/out saying anything,he’ll jz sit down n listen 2 me..letting me 2 release my anger w/out nagging or wat..i reali thanked God i found him..afta tat disaster fall in1 our relationship..v had a samm argument n 2 den lead us 2 breaking up..few weeks l8er,bcoz of our feelings 4 each other,v patched back n go on again..i can feel that v’r getting closer 2 each other after the second chance..i remember during christmas..wen i bought him a big pressie..n he told me he did not buy anytink 4 me..til at nite..its late nite..he bring me 2 his room that is sooo dark w/out lights..i hit him 4 offing the light n wen he switch on the lights..u’ll nvr noe wats on his bed..a very very very big pressie..n another small wan…its sumtink tat i alwiz wanted..its sumtink tat i owiz told him 2 get 4 me..everytime wen i go out wit him,i wud jz look at tat thing n he’ll stop me from buying it n now i had it all ady…i feel so happy n gif a hug..i nvr felt so wonderful b4..v had sooo many memories tat is uncountable..but i cud remember evrything down to the smallest details..til this day arrived 9th of April 2005 whr everything comes 2 the end..we both ended up our relationship due 2 sum reasons..he was everything 2 me n w/out him i couldn’t breathe..i’ll nvr b able 2 eat M&M bcoz no one wil b thr 2 tel me wich color 2 eat 1st..i have no one 2 tok 2 anymore..i had no one 4 me 2 cry on wen i had probs..i cud jz watch him from behind..peeping like a lil thief..it’s reali torturing me wen memories suddenly strucked into my mind..its s if killing me in silent..all i can do iz jz asking him 2 take care..i can nvr say "i love you" 2 him n e more..wit a great group of frens,i’m slowly learning 2 stand up n face life’s challenges..but stil i mizz him alot..wanted 2 b wit him again w/out letting go each other..til one very fine day wen i get 2 noe tat one of my best frens love him alot n wanted 2 b wit him s wel..one side of me telling me 2 fight 4 him but the other side asking me 2 let go..telling me 2 let my fren n he b 2gtr..i’m sooo confused..i does love him alot..HE’S THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN MAKE ME CRY AND LAUGH AT THE SAME TIME..i wud trade anything jz 2 hear him say that he loves me again..til my fren told me tat he told my fren i’m very irritating everytime i told him my probs..he told my fren tht he cant stand me anymore..i jz cant bear tat pain in my heart..i’m actually a fool..i tot he’s keeping quiet 2 listen 2 wat i wana release..but actually he’s keeping quiet coz he’s thinking sumtink else..coz he’s not listening 2 me at all..coz he feels frustrated..i feel so cheated n broken..is this all true..?? y izit has 2 happen 2 me…?? y izit so unfair..?? wen the moment i nid him the most,he cud jz leave me alone..y..?? can sum1 out thr explain 2 me why…?? til 2day,i’m stil waiting 4 him..i blif one day my determination wil touch his hearty…i’ll change myself..i’ll reali change 4 him..i won b tat sensitive anymore..i won sulk anymore..i promise u…!! lastly,i love you and i’ll alwiz remember tiz date…… <1st of May>